Snowflake Challenge Day 1
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spiraliciousDay 1
In your own space, talk about your Happy Place—the things that give you joy, calms you or keeps you sane.
What a way to start. I am actually in need of a Happy Place. I used to have several. My online places have changed irrecoverably. People have moved on and policies have changed various places to the point where they just don't hold the joy for me they once did. Don't get me wrong, I haven't left any of them, I still love the people who stayed, and I have been doing my best to make new friends. I even still have fun sometimes, but participating most places honestly stress me out more than not these days.
IRL, my happy places aren't fairing any better. Most people and places I once considered a happy place have left, closed, or the relationship has turned toxic. In one case, my wonderful fandom friend is dying.
Losing one of the most calming, sanity saving people in my life who I also did almost all of my fandom and non-fandom things with at the end of 2017, has also not helped.
But fear not, I may be in the dark, but I know I'm not alone and I have a flashlight. I'm branching out and rebuilding. It's just slow.
In your own space, talk about your Happy Place—the things that give you joy, calms you or keeps you sane.
What a way to start. I am actually in need of a Happy Place. I used to have several. My online places have changed irrecoverably. People have moved on and policies have changed various places to the point where they just don't hold the joy for me they once did. Don't get me wrong, I haven't left any of them, I still love the people who stayed, and I have been doing my best to make new friends. I even still have fun sometimes, but participating most places honestly stress me out more than not these days.
IRL, my happy places aren't fairing any better. Most people and places I once considered a happy place have left, closed, or the relationship has turned toxic. In one case, my wonderful fandom friend is dying.
Losing one of the most calming, sanity saving people in my life who I also did almost all of my fandom and non-fandom things with at the end of 2017, has also not helped.
But fear not, I may be in the dark, but I know I'm not alone and I have a flashlight. I'm branching out and rebuilding. It's just slow.
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Day 1: happy places
Date: 2019-01-04 02:57 am (UTC)Best of luck with the branching out and rebuilding.
I feel like I'm experiencing a fandom reawakening after lurking in the shadows for several years. I've continued to read and write fanfic, but other than leaving little comments on AO3 I haven't really been interacting much with other fans for a few years and this last year I've become much more active in actually talking with people on Dreamwidth. (I still retreat into my cave on bad days. I had the experience a few years back of the toxic friendship that I didn't recognize was toxic until it had already seriously messed with my self-esteem. But overall I'm starting to remember why fandom was fun.)
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