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Blah, I didn't really do anything Thursday other than some light house work and talk to Tini. Did I mention she has internet again? YAY! I was going to gut my facebook page and update it (even though it will probably look exactly the same when I'm done) but all I did was rearrange some of the boxes and add movies/reviews to my movies application. And apparently I turned a vampire and another zombie. Go me. Although my vampire underling has already surpassed me. Friday I did nothing.
Saturday on the other hand, I went to CC all day. Mostly I went shopping for pet stuff and work shoes for mom. We ended up getting Romeo a little cube thing he loves to death and a fuzzy faux fur pet bed he avoids like the plague. Before that we went to go take pictures of a mural for my dad. A friend of his that passed a few years ago had been painted into it and he will probably never make it down there to go see it. We also visited my aunt and uncle while we were there to find out more info about my cousin's wedding. I ended up spending most of that time talking to my uncle about computer games and cartoons. He loves to play Diablo online and chat in the forums. Another of my cousins came over and I spoke with her for a little bit because she got her nose pierced a year ago and I was wondering where she got it done around here. She got it done at the Del Norte fair, which is next month. We also found out that a man we knew committed suicide about three months ago and possibly killed his mother. Later when we got home we watched Marie Antoinette.
Sunday was kind of a lazy day. I worked on designing announcements. Mom got Romeo a new collar. He keeps attacking the bell on it. We ran errands. I had more photos printed off. Mom made me so we could show dad the mural. While we were waiting for the photos to print, mom and I wandered around Blockbuster. As always there were so many movies I wanted to see. Mom wasn't very interested in anything. We rented nothing. We went to go visit my dad. T9 is finally done and has its decals on the side. Dad gave me a tiny version of the decal. I have no idea where I am going to put it. I played on my computer trying to see if I can burn cds. I can burn music onto cds but for some reason I cannot burn other kinds of files anymore. As I said earlier I think it is because of the dvd player being set to a region 2 player and it is the same drive. It is still disturbing and if that is the reason, why can I burn music? Except when I burn music or play the love metal archives dvd, the computer says that the d drive isn't accessible (I don't remember what it says exactly but that is what it amounts to) and when I highlight files the option of "copy file to CD" should appear under folder tasks but it doesn't. I will figure something out but not being able to back up my computer scares me. I have lost everything too many times before.
I also discovered that the type of goldfish I have been looking for are called Black Moores. I'm not getting any at the moment though because they require a filtered tank (goldfish are actually quite fussy) and I just don't have one at the moment.
Romeo also has a new trick he has been showing off. When I am laying on the couch, he climbs up on to the back of the couch, puts his butt on one side of the couch, his head and forelegs on the other, and slides down on his belly on to me. It is almost disturbing really.
Today I worked on my room. It will probably being an ongoing project into the next milenia at this rate. I also planted some catnip. It was also Romeo's first day outside. It went ok for a little bit but then he got freaked and walked out of his harness (he needs a new one but mother is convinced she can make the one from the dollar tree work). Once he was captured, I sat down with him in the grass and just held him in my lap and he did just fine. Until a bunch of cars went by and we decided it was time he went back inside. I also made dinner tonight. I was really lazy so it was all stuff we had that was premade and I just heated it up, basically. It tasted marginal, it didn't go well together, and it was all finger food, but my presentation was fantastic. And in my mother's book that is the important thing. I also realized today that I have tipped the $1000 mark out of the $1500 that I need to make. Not bad for someone that can't find a job.
Blah it is too hot to do anything so I think I am going to go climb in the freezer now.

Websites of the day: http://www.geocities.com/BourbonStreet/9319/
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Today I went with my aunt to the human resources center to find out that they have you just fill out a form online. Then we went to the unemployment office were we both found nothing. After that I helped her buy a new printer. I went back to bed after that because Romeo kept me up all night. He wanted to play. Then this morning when I was finally asleep he discovered my open window and I had to grab him (on several occasions) to keep him from jumping out of it. I guess it is time to start letting him explore outside. My mom came home early today and was in a kind of scary good mood. We went grocery shopping and bought a couple of movies. We got Marie Antoinette and Pan's Labyrinth. We even checked the mail. She never wants to check the mail. I got the latest ccs catalog in the mail. *squees* I don't know how or why but I'm glad its here. No, I am not buying anything. The only thing in there that I am in the market for right now is a helmet. Of course there are other things in there I want but I'm a bit cash poor at the moment as we all know. Also, tonight on of the Simpson's reruns they aired was one that mom and I always fight about. It is the one where Homer goes to the chili contest and eats a bunch of insanity peppers and goes and a vision quest with a talking coyote. We always argue over who is the voice of the coyote. Tonight we finally watched the credits and I won! It WAS Johnny Cash. Muahahahahaha. Tomorrow I need to do dishes and finish the laundry. I should also check out a couple of want ads I found in the paper. Strange this all seemed so exciting when this all was happening. Pity.

Website of the day: http://www.heathenworld.com/bandname/

What did I do?

Tue, Jul. 17th, 2007 11:19 pm
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Its raining out right now. I love it. It is still to hot though. Today was reasonably productive. I got my stuff together for tomorrow. I did some laundry. I picked up the living room and took the garbage out of the kitchen. All was happy and peaceful, till mother came home. Within five minutes of her coming home I was trying to comfort her, she screamed at me on the verge of tears and was pissed about me yelling at her. But I didn't yell at her. I never even so much as had raised my voice. When she came in I was on the phone with my uncle who had a question for my mother I asked her, after some thinking she answered. I told him. I told her who had called while she was at work she screamed at me. I tried to comfort her. She told me I was a horrible for yelling at her. O_o And I did my damnedest not to turn it into a fight. At first I was pissed for being yelled at over something I hadn't even done, so I decided it was best not to say anything till I had cooled down and just went on about my business. Every time we attempted to talk to each other afterward, she decided to turn it into a fight, no matter what it was. *screams* At least the cat at fun today. He discovered the dryer and apparently how fun it is to knock things off tables. As for updateing my facebook, I was only on long enough to increase the level of my vampire from catholic school girl vampire to bride. I should go take a shower and go to bed. I must be up bright and early tomorrow.
p.s. I have also found that on the 69 eye official web page you can draw on the header. Its quite fun in a weird child like way.

Website of the Day: http://www.goodearthgraphics.com/virtcave/
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Well my birthday was rather quiet. Big surprise. I did get a bunch of phone calls and facebook messages. That's much better then usual. Mom gave me a bunch of gift cards and a cake. Although my grandmother did spill the beans that I have a surprise birthday party tomorrow. Well, it is going to be my mom, sister, her two kids, my aunt, my great aunt and my grandmother standing around watching me open greeting cards (at best) and eating leftover cake from today. I don't know if that qualifies as a party but it is the best I can hope for. No I'm not disappointed. It is better than most years. I usually don't even get that much. Last year was awesome but it was my 21st. My dad took me to dinner tonight. We went to the Onion Grill because Lee's is no more. It was good. He even set up to have the staff bring me a chocolate mousse and sing me happy birthday. It was oddly sweet. It wasn't embarrassing like it is some places and no one has ever done that for me before. Frankly if someone wants to impress me or make me happy on my birthday the bar has been set very low. It was good to hear from Jenny I haven't heard from her in forever. Last night before I went to bed I got some tv reception on NBC and it was a Late Night with Conan O'Brien in San Fransisco with Robin Williams promoting License to Wed. Hairball would have loved it. Also mom forgot to put the garbage out last night and I remembered when I heard the garbage truck coming down the street. So I ran out at 2am and put the garbage out.
In honor of partying, or lack there of I decided to put together a top list:
Most played cds in my cd case (in no particular order):
Anything by Aerosmith
"Buckcherry" by Buckcherry
"Super Colossal Smash Hits of the 90s; The Best of the Mavericks" by The Mavericks
"Take a Break" by Me First and the Gimme Gimmes
"Shoot the Bingo Caller" by Slow Children
Anything by HIM
"Before You Were Punk" by various artists
Remember this list changes often

Website of the Day: http://www.airquee.co.uk/pub/
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So much for finishing anything. The only thing I did today was work on my charm bracelet. It was like pulling teeth to get the parts away from my mother last night. I don't know what it is but she has this thing about me being in possession of my own jewelry. She also gets really upset if anyone other than her works on my broken or jewelry that is in pieces. She has no time to work on them and its my jewelry why can't I work on putting it back together? Anyway, it is all really tiny pieces that require tiny sharp tools. I spent 3 hours just to get one charm on. I'm not even close to getting all my charms on. I am also still looking for some. I made brownies today too. They were awful. They were made from this weird mix. Even mom didn't like them. She suggested soaking them in Cognac and setting them on fire.
I only set off 2 fireworks tonight. So sad I know. It isn't a whole lot of fun alone. This is also the first year we have had to buy fireworks in about 8 years. The ones mom got were kind of lame. She got a giant box of spinners, and 2 boxes of screaming fountains, and these weird crackling things. In the back yard we have this big cement slab. I lit off one of the crackling things in the middle of it and the whole slab was not enough to contain it. And I hate those screaming fountains. At least the neighbor kids had fun. They have been lighting off fireworks for a couple days now and they are still at it. It is the first time in a long time we have had kids in the neighborhood. Most of them had moved away or were over 16 by the time I was 8. Its kinda cool really. There are several of them and they all play instruments, including the drums, all night long. And they have dogs that bark. They run around the neighborhood like crazy people. The oldest, she is 13 or 14 I think, has blue hair and seems to always be wearing ripped tights whenever I see her in town. Its almost like life has been breathed into the neighborhood. Too bad they are moving.
I'm surprised my dad didn't call because he said he would call before my birthday and my birthday is tomorrow and he hasn't called.
And no tv was coming in at all today. The better the weather, the worse the tv comes in. So I finished season 5 of Viva la Bam and watched it again with the commentary. Mom even likes it with the commentary. She asks a lot of questions and comments while we are watching but they are all valid. Like "where is that guy from?" (Jussi from 69 Eyes) or "Wow they have a lot of music on there" (watching the credits). I am just babbling now. I also watched Jane Eyre (George C. Scott and Susanah York)and OF Human Bondage (Betty Davis). I suppose I will stop boring you now and maybe I go to bed like a normal person.

Website of the day: http://birdseye.octo.dc.gov/main.html
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Well I am still unemployed much to my mother's disappointment. Everything just went wrong this morning so I didn't even go look. But now I have my shit together so I have no excuse not to go tomorrow. And with my luck it will be the only place in town that doesn't need anybody and I will have to go look else where. So, what did I do you may ask? I attempted many projects only to fail miserably at all of them for various reasons. I put on the tv for background noise and Fox was coming in clearer than it ever has, but it had no sound. It was the only channel with no sound but the other two channels were really fuzzy. So I put on some dvds. I watched season 4 of Viva la Bam with and without commentary and some episodes of an old black and white tv version of Sherlock Holmes I got at the Dollar Tree. They were pretty good. I should see if they have more of them. It also proves I miss Martini because in the back of my mind I could clearly hear her say "Watson and Holmes are so doing it." I wonder how her move went. And I have to say Viva la Bam is funnier with commentary.

There is also a suggestion that goes with the website of the day today: "Put on some Led Zeppelin and you've got a laser light show right at your desk."

Website of the day: http://www.fractal-recursions.com/
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Today mostly consisted of terrorizing my dad. This involved two things his dumpster at the shop and his porch at his trailer. First mom and I have been cleaning out the bathroom. It is like a beauty product museum in there. There was stuff going all the way back to the 60s. And then mom had me go through my shoes. For the first time in my life I have more then 2 pairs of shoes. I have tons. So we separated them into piles of one I am keeping, throwing away, and donating. My mother also cleaned up the back room. After all of that we gathered up the bathroom garbage, the stuff from the back room, and the shoes, and the household garbage. We put it all in neon pink Torrid bags and filled up my dad's dumpster. Then we went by the trailer. Yesterday I traffic coned off his porch. I don't know if he knows its me or not yet because when he called yesterday he didn't say anything and neither did I. Today I rearranged the cones and caution taped his palm tree.
After that mom and I drove around looking at all the new houses that have been built. We also set ups some fake flowers at the cemetery. And yes I called my grandmother. I am the good grandchild. Or so she keeps telling me. Now I must go write a resume.

Website of the day: http://www.learner.org/exhibits/parkphysics/
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Ok so it wasn't quite a hostile take over of the bathroom but a point was made, and accepted. Well that was all that happened yesterday. Today my mother didn't go into work. Yay? I was sick most of the day and all we did was run errands. But on the plus side I got sushi and didn't have to cook dinner. I also had 100 photos printed. It almost didn't happen because for some reason right now my computer won't burn cds. I think I know what the problem is but it didn't matter in the end because there were 100 photos, of the about 400 or so I wanted printed, that were still on my camera's memory card. The prints sale ended today and it was only for sets of 50 prints and you could only do it twice for this month. I also got a package ready to mail to Hairball. I just need to put postage on it. Mom and I also went into the library today to set up some internet time for tomorrow. I got to see Dori and she was all excited that I was so close to finishing school. It was nice to find someone that was actually excited. And I finally found my cellphone. I wish my day could have been a bit more interesting for you that actually read my journal.

website of the day: http://www.homestarrunner.com/sbemail58.html


Wed, Jun. 27th, 2007 11:44 pm
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Hi! I have only had internet since 1pm yesterday and I'm sooo happy, even though it is dial-up. It was such a pain because my mother was behind in payments, then they lost the check, on and on, so after several phone calls they hooked me up even though they couldn't find the check.
Let's see what have I been up to since I have been home...mostly unpacking. First I had to get all of my stuff out of the garage into the living room, then I had to get it from the living room into either my room or the attic. There is only one box still in the living room but I can't get around in my room. Its full of boxes. Each day is a new adventure. I never know what I am going to find whenever I open a box. Also, my mother was using my room for storage while I was away, so some of that stuff is still in here too. I have hooked up my answering machine because my mother's doesn't work right. I have also hooked up my dvd player. Did I mention my mother completely redecorated the house since I was home last? I'm still getting used to it. I have watched seasons 1-3 plus all the bonus material of Viva la Bam. I even found some hidden bonus footage on the bonus dvd for seasons 2&3. I also watched HIM vs Bam. So now my mother is a Bam fan. Its kinda scary. She wants me to write him a letter for her. I should have seen this coming when she had me tape Unholy Union. I have been doing all the cooking. I have started Hairball's Helldone snowman costume. There was a couple of exciting trips to the post office. My mother only checks the mail about once a month when I am not home so the box was packed. My Revolver magazine came (yay Ville poster) and my Spin magazine came (not so exciting). Also my Origins of Abstract Art professor sent me my paper and final. I got Bs on both of them! Yay! The paper is especially exciting because it was supposed to be 6-8 pages and mine was only a little over 3. And I used to be such a good student. My mother has been working 14 hour days lately (big surprise) because she has 3 new employees and the football camp is in town. So I have been nice and not strangled her when she makes mean comments about me. Hell, I even gave her a back rub the other day without complaint. But those boys are leaving Thursday morning and then all bets are off. The turf war over the bathroom has already begun. She thinks she can get away with telling me I can't have any space for my things in the bathroom after she has already promised me a shelf and a drawer. Just wait! I also have been going over my photos in my computer because this weekend (I think) we are having prints made. Today I had a dentist appointment. Apparently I have a new dentist, again. I haven't met him yet though. At least I got the hygienist I like this time. The bad part is though part of one of my teeth broke off when she was cleaning it. Oh well, it was a tiny piece of one of the ones that is cracked from when I got smacked. Its ok. Well, I must got plan for tomorrow is my hostile take over of the bathroom.

Website of the day: http://www.fallsview.com/Stream/HiResStill.shtml

The Ride Home

Wed, Jun. 27th, 2007 12:09 am
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From June 17th:
Right before we left my mother asked HA directions to Michael's because she saw in the paper that they were having a huge sale. It was out on Green Acres so of course I had to sing the theme song the whole way there. By the way for those of you who don't know, neither my mother or I should be left alone in a craft store unsupervised. Anyway, my mother and I found many amazing sales, her on jewelry making supplies, me on mostly scrap-paper supplies. We also had a coupon that made regular priced items 40% off. Not that we had anything to frame but all custom framing was 50% off that day too. Then we went to lunch and then finally we were on our way home. Oddly enough we spent most of the time talking instead of listening to my cds, which is what we usually do. But when we got home there was a problem. I couldn't go in. I got as far as the garage and had a total break down and couldn't go inside. It didn't last too long though because very soon after it started my dad's pick-up came roaring up and he was pissed. Apparently, he got home three hours before us and this was the third time he came by the house, And apparently my cell phone had died. My father has this amazing ability, he shows up and all my emotions temporarily turn off. We quickly unloaded his pick-up and put my stuff in the garage. He told me he was sorry my fishy died. I told him happy father's day and then he drove off (and I haven't seen him since). Later (Thursday) he did call to ask why we were so late and he asked me is I was ok because I seemed "tired, like you are making yourself sick tired." I told him about the sale at Michael's (he seemed oddly impressed) and that I had just had a rough week and a long weekend. To be honest I was surprised he noticed (I didn't tell him that).

website of the day: http://www.stopabductions.com/

Good Bye Humpers

Tue, Jun. 26th, 2007 11:52 pm
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Something tragic did happen graduation weekend. Humphrey died. I feel horrible about it. I forgot about him in the car and he froze to death. I remembered him Sunday morning but it was too late. My mother responded with "but I thought he would be warm enough in the car." I knew better, I simply for got to go get him. She then suggested that I try warming him up (he was very clearly dead) so i put his little bowl by the heater to slowly warm the temperature. My dad suggested putting him in the microwave. Why do people always want to put my fish in the microwave? Anyway, after it was very clear that he was not going to magically come back to life, I flushed him. I may have cried, but I dare you to prove it. My mother did suggest that we could take him home and he might warm up in the car on the way home and be better. I wasn't going to carry a corpse in a jar for 4 hours. Where does she come up with these things? Does she really think it helps? Of course considering how the deaths of Frosty and Ruby were handled she doesn't have a good tack record. Good bye Humphrey.

Website of the day: http://tvdads.com/tvdad1.html

Graduation Day

Tue, Jun. 26th, 2007 10:53 pm
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There was going to be a part 1 & 2 but I decided to save what was going to be part 1 for when I am actually done with school.
From June 16th:
The day started at 6:30 in the morning to finish packing and cleaning my room which was going very well until we realized that my dad was three hours late. Which is very unlike him. I called all his numbers and got no answer. So, then I called BA, becaase my dad is staying with him, and he hadn't heard from my dad either and said that my dad had not returned any of his phone calls in the last few days. Also not a good sign. As much as I complain about my father and as much as we don't along, I worry about him a lot. He works alone out in the woods where most cell phones don't work and if anything was to happen to him it is very possible no one would know for days. But it turned out he was fine. He had just over slept and his cell phone was broken. I even hugged him. He was happy till he realized that we had been worried about him and then got upset that we had worried about him. So with much effort and yelling (but I only fell once). We got everything out of my room and into my dad's pick-up. Although a lot of it was also in my mom's car from when we thought BA might have to come move some of my stuff. His pick-up is not nearly as big as my dad's. My dad brought me an autographed hat. Apparently some race car driver had been in town and stopped at the restaurant my dad eats at all the time (he has both a breakfast and a lunch named after him on the menu), and he got me an autographed hat. I know nothing about NASCAR or who that driver was but its still cool. My mom got a hat too (not from my dad) because the driver that had stopped at the restaurant had been on his way to the grocery store my mom works at in the next town over for a fund-raiser and energy drink promotion. But her hat is not autographed. Anyway, When we were done my dad and I went to go get lunch. We had an hour to kill before my formal check out at 1. The problem was that it takes 30 minutes to go from campus to BA's house, so there was no way we could go get ready for graduation and be back in time for my check out. But I had to be at the staging area at 2:15 (graduation was at 3)so there was no way we could wait till my check out and then go to BA's house to get ready either. So we sent my dad away so he could go get ready. I got ready in the public toilet and my mother got ready in my room. By the time I was ready it was time to check out. I checked out then mom and I hung out by the car taking pictures till I had to got to the staging area.
At the staging area, the AAA students go their name cards to give to the announcer and then lined up by major. We talked and took pictures and compared hats. Then we marched in a long procession to the graduation area. we took our seats in groups of 19 and then looked through the programs waiting for the circus to start. My name was spelt wrong, but I was warned about that the day before. Then the speakers started talking, and talking and talking repetitively, endlessly. Then each department was called up and when it was your turn you handed your name card to the announcer, he asked you how to pronounce your name, he said it our loud into the microphone and then you walked across the stage. When you got to the other end your department head handed you an empty diploma cover and then the dean of the AAA school shook your hand and away you went to go stand in line until your department had got all their "diplomas" and then you all sat down and watched all the other departments go. And somewhere in there you should have been cheering for all your friends. Then everyone threw their hats in the air.
Then the real fun began. About 1500 people came to the AAA graduation and I had to go find my parents, BA and HA. But guess who I found instead? My grandmother! She came! And better yet she knew where everyone else was, (no one sat together). So once we where all together again, plus my aunt and grandmother, we took lots of pictures. Then we went to our seperate vehicles (my mom's car, my aunts car, and BA's pickup)and my the long trek out to BA & HA's house. My mother's and Aunt's cars got to the house long before BA and crew did. So we took more pictures. They live out in the country away from everything and my grandmother insisted I take a picture of Cloud. Cloud was not very co-operative. Then the gang in the white pickup finally showed up so we went inside. And BA made everyone drinks (this is where the story gets weird. Its my party yet all I'm drinking is coke while everyone else is having high powered cocktails). BA and HA give my grandmother and aunt the grand tour while I talk with dad and my mother is already very obviously drunk and she hasn't finished her first drink. After some more talking my aunt and grandmother had to leave. Then there was more talking and BA foolishly gave my mother a second drink. Of course everyone else was on their 3rd, except me. (my mother is a major light weight and she was in the company of very hearty drinkers and I chose to babysit my mother instead of having fun) And we have a very amazing dinner that BA cooked. After dinner we had triple chocolate cake and toasts. And then the party really started. At one point my dad went to sleep on the couch and my mother passed out in GCA's room. BA was...well he was everywhere. HA and I stayed up looking up some information online about a plate from Finland she has. She is very into all things Finnish, of course that might have something to do with the fact that she is Finnish. But anyway while I was showing off my mad research skills (hello Art History major!) I finally had a whiskey and Coke. When we where done HA told me that I could hang out on the computer all night if I wanted but I went to bed instead. I had been up since 6:30 and hadn't slept the 2 days before. So I made my way to the drum room and crashed. All and all despite a few tense moments, green hair comments, and getting a little sun burnt, it was a pretty good day. It was really a lot more fun then I described. If you want details you are gonna have to ask.

website of the day: http://www.modernhumorist.com/mh/0203/moviecliche/moviecliche.mp3
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From Friday June 15th:
There were PRCRs everywhere! Blue,yellow and pink sheets flying through the air. We don't know when Patty finally lost it but at some point she just laid down and died in the back. We just buried her in PRCRs and kept on going. They just kept coming with papers and keys and phone calls. We racked as fast as we could! We typed till our little fingers bled. They just kept dropping all around me. Everything started to get fuzzy then and the room spun. The keys! The keys!
O.K. that isn't how my last day of work went but it is what my boss and I were saying would happen during close down before hand. Actually close down went quite well. Moving in the summer kids did not go nearly as well but there is always going to be a few snags. And then magically at nine o'clock I was done. I clocked out for the last time at the Area Desk ever and walked away. I was elated.
Then my mood turned sour. I called my room and my mother's cell phone five times to get her to let me in the building so I could go to my room. I even shouted at my open window. Still she never came down to let me in. I imagined all sorts of scenarios, she was in the bathroom, she was in the car, she fell and busted her skull open and is now in need of serious medical attention. So, I called my friend who also lived in the building and was staying over an extra day to come let me in. I felt bad because she was spending time with her family that flew in from Japan but she was the only one that could let me. We get up there and there is my mother scrubbing the carpet.There is glass everywhere and red on her arms so my friend and I automatically assume the worst but she was fine. She just put my very large bottle of pomegranate syrup, that I had bought to bring home so I could have pomegranate Italian sodas at home because you can't buy that flavor of syrup anywhere even remotely near where I live, on the edge of a shelf, that I told her not to put things on, and it fell. Yes, my mother was packing for me and cleaning my room while I was at work. It was her idea. I would have much rather her not show up till Saturday and and me be up all night after work packing by myself. Whenever my mother "helps" me things get lost and broken. Not that I don't love my mother and appreciate that she actually wants to help me. Oh I need to just stop before I say something bad.

website of the day: http://www.weebls-stuff.com/games/Cat+Death+Auto

My Apologies

Sat, Jun. 16th, 2007 12:23 am
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I had planned on writing two posts tonight. One was going to be about the last day of work and packing and what not. The other was going to be a special graduation day post because well I am graduating today. But my mother has some how managed to make me so angry and frustrated that I can't. I cannot make my brain function in such a way as to type up already planned out posts. I swear she has super powers. It's going to be awhile before I can post again so sorry this sucked.

website of the day: http://www.weebls-stuff.com/games/Cat+Death+Auto
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Yesterday, I reached another local rite of passage. I bought a joke book from Frog. It is an elaborate ritual that involves squeasing several rubber chickens. But it means that I am now the proud owner of an autographed copy of Illegitamte Son of Frog.
Lately, I have been doing a lot of reflecting. For obvious reasons, I'm graduating. You'd think I'd be happy. It's not so much that I'm only noticig the endings, like Hairball's and my last late night Puckler's run of the year or the goodbye party at work. I also notice that it is a begining, a begining that scares me. As of the 15th I'll offically be unemployed. As of the 16th I'll be offically homeless. As of the 17th I'm offically moving back home because I have no where else to go. Granted I'm happy that at least I have a place to go, but there isn't anything there for me really.
A while back a girl at work said something to me, "I'm really worried about you moving back home." The full meaning of that didn't really sink in until very recently. It is not just that I am increadbly unhappy whenever I go home, or that I have no firends there, or job. Since I lived at home I have, not so much become a different person, but actaully act like myself now. When I go home on breaks I still hide things from people and just don't talk about certain aspects of my life. Its ok though because I come back here and I can more or less be myself again. That isnt to say that I fit in here or that I am happy here either. But it is a different kind of miserable.
Staying here isn't much of an option either. I don't really have any friends here that live here. I'm also not very happy here either. The hope is that I go home and save money and come up with some sort of plan to be somewhere else. Yeah I have no plan.
That is one of the worse parts about graduating. Its not the fact that I have no plan, its that people keep asking me what my plan is. Only my fellow graduates seem to understand that unless you know a person has a plan after graduation, you should never ask them what their plans are. See for me first I have to tell them that even though I am graduating, I am not actaully done with school, I still have to come back for a term in the fall. So I am not done until December. This summer I have to get a job and live at home and do whatever it is my mother requires of me so that she won't charge me rent (as she has threatened to do). Then in December, I will be exactly where I am now. So I have been telling people that I am going home in order to save some money and work on my art, so that I can travel and eventually move to Seattle or San Fransisco. I don't know if it is the truth but that is what I have been telling people.
I find myself wishing I could go back four years. Not that I liked high school. It was pretty much the worst time of my life so far. But at least then I wasn't in this spot now. I had firends, kinda, who where actually physically in the same city. They didn't really have time for me most of the time but hey they were there. I had an old but reasonably healthy dog and a cat who was my universe. Unlike now when I have a dead dog and have to leave Target in a hurry because they have those stupid scrapbooks that are like baby books for pets that you can put their little paws prints on like I wanted to get Ruby when she was a kitten. I was unhappy with my life and where I lived and assumed there where places that live could be different and I could find people like me. Now I actaully know. At least my mother is trying to understand that part. She is willing to work with me on the adjusting from one lifestyle to a new one thing. The only thing she won't budge on so far is getting an internet connection that isn't dial up. Her argument is "but you can use the library's computer for an hour a day." But enough about that. I try to remind myself of all the, for lack of a better term, life changing things that happened in the last four years, the good ones; meeting Hairball, becoming friends with Martini all over again, the HIM concert, going from virtually no computer skills to whatever I am now, the list goes one and on. But this makes it worse. It just adds to the things I wish had never happended bnecause you can't miss what you never had. Back then it seemed as though life was ahead of me. Now it seems as though I am somehow spirallying backwards, like the last four years didn't count. They didn't mean anything, the good or the bad. It was just one big cruel expensive joke. I feel as though small children should be pointing at me going "look mommy she failed at life." and then their mothers shush them saying it's not nice to point, politely nod at me and then drag their little brats away. That ended up being more depressing then I had intended.

Website of the day: http://www.geocities.com/ottopallone/
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It was kind of a busy weekend. Friday after I got off work I turned in all my contracts for next year. Then I had to go back to work and talk to my boss so I could get out of the staff meeting and to make sure that they found my several notes about the fish. He has Popeye. I left instructions on how to deal with it taped to his bowl and I taped a disease/symptoms chart next to his feeding chart. Then I tried to take a nap. Then at 3 I went to the mandatory "bonus" class. I could have been at the end of the year meeting for an hour, ate some food and got my award and made it to the party that was at 5 on time but no. I rearranged my life to go to the bonus class on Friday instead of Tuesday so I wouldn't screw up my week. The class ran long. Then I ran into Patience. I forgot that her boyfriend's final architecture review was Friday, so I went to that and he did a very good job. He is graduating this year. Then I had to get ready and run to the store. I got to the party around 8. It was very fun but I left at 10 because it is tough being one of only 3 people not completely wasted. The pictures are appearing on facebook as we speak.
Saturday I got up early and went to Saturday Market for possibly the last time. I got my mom one of those wind-chimes she always looks at but never buys. Then I met Hairball at the bus station so we could go to the mall to buy my graduation dress. That took so long. But I have a dress. That is the important thing, I guess. The rest of the weekend was spent goofing off or on the phone with my mother trying to tie up loose ends. I should get back to studying because I have a final tomorrow.

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Wed, May. 23rd, 2007 11:32 pm
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Oh what a day. Today started out rather pleasant. I was very happy. I had 4 amazing dreams, but then I looked at the clock and realized I missed class (well class was still in session but by the time I would have gotten there it would have been over). Which is very bad because we were going to get our midterms back today, the professor was going to tell us the syllabus changes and the girl who was going to give me notes from last time I missed class was going to give them to me today. I decided to got to class and catch people as they were leaving in hopes of at least getting the notes and an update, but then I fell asleep. When I woke up again, I had missed the office hours I was supposed to go to. I sent that professor an e-mail and I will try to catch her after class tomorrow. But I was woken up by venice knocking on my door. She needed advice because in order to not get kicked out of the university she needs to drop all her classes, but to stay in housing she must be a full time student, so she wanted to know who to talk to and how long she would have before they would make her move out after she dropped. She came to me because I am the Housing Ninja (a title Hairball gave me). So I helped her with that. I was happy to be helpful but a little sad she was having problems. Then I went to buy a slushie but got a giant cherry soda instead. Then I pretended to work on my papers a bit. Then I had to call mom and at the end of the conversation I had the guts to ask how Ruby was doing. Ruby died...MONDAY NIGHT! On top of being incredibly upset about my cat, I was pissed at my mom for not telling me. She had no intention of telling me and had several opportunities to do so because I have called home several times since then and she could have always called me. I told Martini and Hairball they are both upset and upset with my mother as well. So Martini made me a special entry on her lj and was doing the best she could to try to cheer me up online. She is a very good friend. And then I went to go find Hoobie in the dinning center. While I was there I checked my mail and I had two package slips. They made me feel a little better for three reasons: 1) the package slips said "coolest person ever" and "best DA ever" on them and they don't know what is going on,(I'm going to have to find to who did mail today and thank them), 2) it meant I had packages, and 3) Maiko was working and she always makes me feel better. The packages were presents from Mandy and the stuff I ordered from Amazon (that wasn't supposed to be here till the 4th). Mandy got me a very awesome craft book, that I will be trying out as soon as I can, a frog stained glass coloring book, and a very cute card. I love it all very much. From amazon I got Uneasy Listening Vol. 2 and the enhanced Summer Wine single. I also got something else that I might talk about in a friends locked entry at a later date. So I was very happy about that. Tini got me a present to make me feel better. Hairball and I went out for dinner and I was just kind of a Zombie mess. We talked about our picnic that we are having on Sunday and we might go to the mall on Friday. I haven't told Jenny yet because she hasn't been around to tell. So just when I was thinking I had no real friends, it turns out I have several truly amazing friends. Today has been very bizarre. I am both completely devastated and overjoyed at the same time, and I don't like it.

Website of the day: http://www.earlyamerica.com/

p.s. Yesterday wasn't all bad. I forgot that I got to talk with the fabulous Annie.
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Ok this weekend was actually pretty good. My mom came and we got along the whole time, mostly. She brought me homemade stroganoff. Yay! We went shopping on friday and saturday. We got lost trying to find Borders on Friday so we went to the mall instead. My mother never gets to go to the mall so she was excited. Her favorite stores there are Claire's and Hottopic. We also went to Toys'r'us. I should probably never be aloud in toy stores. I play with everything and it takes every ounce of my being not to run around the store squealing. On Saturday we went to Saturday Market and she go this wall plaque that says Carpe Noctem. We finally found Borders. So yes, I am finally in possesion of the May Metal Hammer. Unfortunatly, I saw the Classic Rock Magazine with Steven Tyler on the cover but did not have the money to get both. le sigh. Anyway, the rest of the day was spent at thrift stores, Shoes Right Here, the chocolate shop, and several other stores. My mother likes to shop but doesn't get to get out much. At somepoint when we were in my room my mother was watching South Park, yes, its ok to be frightened. She left sunday with about half a carload of my belongings. Yet, when you look in my room it doesn't look like anything is missing. sigh. We were going to get a hotel for one night as a treat away from the dorms and a chance at a private shower. But we decided against it because of how much the vet bills were being estimated at.

Now here comes the bad news, the very bad news. My kitty is sick. My bratty evil cat that everyone hates, that is the center of my universe that I spoil rotten and love as though she is my child is sick. She is very sick. She wasn't eating and she was dehydrated so my mom took her to the vet Friday before she left to come up here. They said that Ruby was just a bit dehydrated and that her teeth were to blame for her not eating and that he was going to keep her over the weekend on an IV and give her a "dental" on Monday and she would be fine. We called Saturday to check on her and they said she was getting better. She was sitting up and screaming at everyone (very normal behavior for her). We went shopping for canned food because he said no more dried food. We got her a new tag for her collar. I looked at toys I was going to get her to say I was sorry for being gone so much. I called mom after she was supposed to pick up Ruby from the vet today. She was crying. Ruby is much worse. She is still dehydrated. They have given her so much fluid she should be over hydrated. She is barley moving. They have her in an oxygen tent. Her temperature is below normal so they have her on a water circulating heating pad. They have ruled out an infection because they have given her very antibiotic they could find with no change. They don't know what is wrong with her. I'm sobbing for hours on the phone and my mom is asking me what I want done with the body. She's not dead yet! I can't go home. I want to go home. I'm stuck here another month. Hairball tried to make me feel better with ice cream and gummi bears. I stopped careing about school and work awhile ago. I've already lost my dog, several family members, and a friend since this hellish school year started. I just want my kitty to be better.

websites of the day: http://www.freeonlinegames.com/play/2577.html
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So many things have happened in the last couple days I haven't really had time to update.
Sunday: Dad called with an update on the graduation party plans. Mostly it was a guest list update. I told him My grandmother was coming but he has yet to realize that he hasn't told my mother about the party yet. Good thing I did so the fireworks are already over with, I hope. I know 2 of my sisters are not coming but the other one we aren't sure about. She got and award and will be flying to Chicago the weekend before and they are going to some sort of amusement park the weekend before that.
Monday: The Hoobie was released! And then I had an unrelated breakdown of some sort. I was really in rare form this time. I got a little better and talked to Martini for a little bit. Then I had to go to work. I attempted to work on my paper but ultimately I ended up making play-dough flowers for 2 hours. I was happy that I could help RC with his homework. He was a real sweetheart and let me be weird for awhile. I was kinda surprised when he walked in with a hair cut and blue hair. Did I mention That I also missed class? There is way more to this but I'm not going to go into it. I also ordered a bunch of stuff off Amazon.
Tuesday: I made it to class! Ok it felt like a complete waste of time but I got my midterm for my Origins of Abstract Art class. I got a B. Hooray. I also got my second History of Photography paper assignment. I have picked out several images to possibly do my paper on but I run them by the professor and she canceled her office hours this week. Oh and we have a Test in that class tomorrow morning and she didn't post the study guide until last night. I also got my housing contract for next year. My spirits were lifted a bit after finally talking to Hairball and listening to Him night.
Today: I am finally on the official graduation list now. I also finally got to talk with my Islamic Art and Architecture class professor about my paper for her class. She cried in class today. At work we had an end of the year meeting with all 3 area desks together. We sat through a presentation. Then all the superiors said their thank yous and such to everybody. I was one of the people singled out by name, which made me a minor center of attention later when we were having pizza and cake. I got to catch up with some people and I even got a hug and some congratulations. And DW was embarrassed around me for the 4th time in 3 days. Bless him. It was nice to catch up with CW, NC, DK, IL, MN, CO, and all the other lovely people than came and spoke to me tonight. I also think I have convinced my boss to dye a streak of her hair turquoise. Then I walked home and watched Jackass 2 again. And now since I have found my missing text books I'm off to go study.
I know this all sounds very boring. I guess you had to be there.

Website of the Day: http://www.baldrus.com/baldhalloffame.shtml


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