spiralicious | A phone call can change everything...

Ok, I have been all but avoiding the computer lately. There is a reason for this. A friend of mine passed away Sunday. I found out Monday morning. I got a phone call on my way to class and that was it, she was gone. I spent the rest of the day not quite knowing what to do with myself. The CD called to make sure I was ok and my RA came by my room. Mostly I just wanted to be alone except when I didn’t and wandered around campus aimlessly. I after several failed attempts I called my mother. Later I called Jen. After I was sitting in the middle of the floor sobbing I decided that I wasn’t going to go to anymore classes that day. Hairball tired to sheer me up and we went to ice cream and wandered a little talking. I went to the group grief counseling session. I haven’t decided if that was helpful or not.
Today was a little better. I was still touchy and weird. I tried to make the day as normal as possible knowing that I really couldn’t. I went to class, but it turned out that the TA in that class also knew my friend and had a bunch of questions. I ran some errands. I watched VeniceBiatch scare people with her fake gapping wound. Later I was bit short with her and I feel kind of bad about it. I hope she understands. Later Hairball, VeniceBiatch, and I went to target to get some stuff for the zombie walk tomorrow. Wikkid picked us up and we all went to dinner. It was some organic food restaurant with dinosaurs you can play with. He really cheered me up on the way home when he was doing his demented Keanu Reaves and Elmo impressions. I don't think he knew about my friend but that’s ok. I've been reading the wonderful things people are saying about my fiend on facebook. Mostly I just don’t know what to do with myself and can’t seem to sit still. I'm nauseous and twitchy and mood swingy. I just thought I’d say something.