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This Is Not A Happy Post
Wed, Nov. 29th, 2023 03:40 pmIt’s been a bit so I just wanted to check in.
One of the reasons I have been so absent is that I am just flat-out struggling this year and I felt guilty about that. Partially, because I didn’t feel like I had the right to be, since other people have it worse and not everything is going wrong. In fact, some good things have happened this year, it’s just overall, I have not been okay. I also hate how I feel like I am starting every post with apologies and explanations of how I am not okay.
This has led to not reaching out in general, which has been very isolating, which has made everything worse.
On top of this, my cat passed away Saturday morning. She was very old and we saw it coming, but it did not make it any easier.
It is now the first time in 17ish years I have been completely pet-less and there are a lot of big feelings happening with that.
At the beginning of this month, I was hopeful that I could, at least partially, turn things around by the end of the year. Now, I am not so sure.
I am hoping with this post, and getting this off my chest, that the part of my brain that isn’t letting me post the giant stack of things I want to post and chat about (silly and good things, overall), will let up and let me get at least part of them up by the end of the year.
I hope you all are doing as well as you can be.
One of the reasons I have been so absent is that I am just flat-out struggling this year and I felt guilty about that. Partially, because I didn’t feel like I had the right to be, since other people have it worse and not everything is going wrong. In fact, some good things have happened this year, it’s just overall, I have not been okay. I also hate how I feel like I am starting every post with apologies and explanations of how I am not okay.
This has led to not reaching out in general, which has been very isolating, which has made everything worse.
On top of this, my cat passed away Saturday morning. She was very old and we saw it coming, but it did not make it any easier.
It is now the first time in 17ish years I have been completely pet-less and there are a lot of big feelings happening with that.
At the beginning of this month, I was hopeful that I could, at least partially, turn things around by the end of the year. Now, I am not so sure.
I am hoping with this post, and getting this off my chest, that the part of my brain that isn’t letting me post the giant stack of things I want to post and chat about (silly and good things, overall), will let up and let me get at least part of them up by the end of the year.
I hope you all are doing as well as you can be.
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